I think I'm Dying, I hope

I think I'm dying, I hope

i think i’m dying, i hope

it won’t take long

the pain is strong –

stronger than me.

i have to laugh when they say

your life goes before you in a flash

at the end. the past

is more painful than this dying could be.

i have to shake my head

at the tears, the regrets

from my friends who don’t know the relief

that being dead offers me.

i have to feel quite content –

life, tho short, has been full and i am spent,

so i’ll go quietly.

really i think it is better this way;

i was all too much and long too real

and i was locked up in my head

half-witted at shadows, for all purposes dead –

why keep me alive

when i think i’m dying, i hope.

    Jamise Hopper